What do I do....

I remember seeing you for the first time out the corner of my eye
I remember thinking...
"don't stare, but look, but don't linger...oh God, get it together, Erica!"

It is so hard to not look deep into your soul...
But I know that scares people and I know that I scare people
It's a gift I have

But I don't want to scare you
I want to go in deep with you
And yet something tells me that you could withstand it

Sometimes I see you and I lose my voice
Once I was not paying attention and I almost ran into you...
I swear I almost peed my pants

When I feel your eyes on me, I tell myself to run
Fast.
But I don't wanna run

I want to go in deep...

I feel it in my soul
You are just like me

You are that spirit that I have been searching for
You have evolved
You are coming on strong
You keep coming around in the most profound ways

You have to be him
You have to be my Ramesses

Back from the sands of time
Can you sense the royalty in me too?

You see me, I know you do

You still think about me the way I think about you
I still hear your voice from many miles away
You found me
And I want to grow once more with you

What do I do when my skin feels electric and I haven't even touched you...yet
What do I do when I see my whole existence in your eyes
What do I do when I know loving you once more could be the end of me

But if I am to die...I want to die of love of you
If I am to die again...I want to die with you

If you take my hand again, my King, I know that we will never ever be the same
And sometimes I don't want to love you
But I do...so what do I do

Don't Understand....Just Accept

For so long I yearned just for the people I called my friends to understand me.
For so long I so willingly assigned the title "friend" to people I did not need to let in.

The truth is, no one really gets in though.
I keep it all hidden.
Some call it self defense, some call it issues, some call it mere privacy. 

I just call it "me".  I'm just me.
If you were meant to get in...you will obtain access.

But for so long I wanted to be understood. 
I don't need understanding.
I just need you to accept.

Just accept me for me and appreciate me from my flaws to my talents.
That's all I could ever ask.

And well, if you don't want to just blindly accept me...
Please just walk away and don't try so hard to hold onto me... don't try to "figure me out" and tell me to change or tell me I have issues.

Just accept. Then we can get to connecting...

But those of you who get me and accept...me and you....we can get to bonding.