Crashing Down

It happened all of a sudden
I wasn't prepared for it
I had even become comfortable with the status quo
I believed that this was how it was supposed to be
That's the way it is....

But then one day, not so long ago
I felt it.
I felt it immediately...I peered into my soul
And then it happened just like that

I couldn't resist and I found myself knocking on the door
My hand barely touched the pecan wood before I was greeted so kindly
Surprised, I barely could breathe out a soft hello
See I had never felt energy like this before

All my life I searched for a friend who would listen
A friend who would not judge
A friend who would luv unconditionally
A friend who cared

In all my years I never found you...until now
You opened your mouth for the first time and I felt liberated
It was effortless for you
I don't even think you knew

The more you spoke, the more I wanted to stay
The more I saw, the easier it felt
I no longer ask questions
I no longer fear

You take pride in my artistry
You luv my accomplishments
You make me feel free
You make me feel connected

It's never happened to me before
No one ever ovastand

I don't have to hold back anymore
My heart is young again
What a great friend I found in you
Everyday you teach me something new

I feel silly
I feel blessed
I feel happy

Where have you been - but of course, you are probably thinking that about me
I'm ready to float off the edge and into the sea
You inspire me and encourage me to be free
To luv myself
You inspire me to luv you

From the moment you spoke, I felt liberated
All the walls I built up came crashing down

Desperately Seeking her Pharaoh

She travelled many miles from home
She took a sabbatical from ruling her nation

She was quite unhappy back in her homeland
She needed to find a reason to live again

Even with all the wonderful events life threw her way
Still she just wept everyday

So she took leave for many months
She made a pilgrimage north to turn it all around

Something profound was missing from her life
She grew weary of her duties
Her kin no longer believed in her
Friends didn't understand her plight
Her home, just like her life, was in shambles

Above all this - she lost her Pharaoh 5 years past.

He was everything to her back then

Together they fought wars
Ruled a nation
Together they were powerful
They were beautiful, hopeful and fierce

Together they were destructive
He angry
She dramatic

Still by his side - she wanted him so...

She watched him from afar
She turned away her suitors, pursued him, won him and cherished him so

She's returned from her distant voyage a new woman yet empty handed

Her Pharaoh - where could he be?

She discovered happiness
She discovered the truth
She discovered clarity
Most of all she discovered freedom

She's a better person for her pilgrimage
She was free
She was free...but she didn't know love

She wanted to feel alive, important, beautiful and whole

She wanted to know the most extraordinary love there ever was
She wanted to feel the intensity of passion that could only be shared between a queen and her Pharaoh

She spends all of her days caring for her people
A lot of time in wars and negotiations
And at the end of the day...
all she wants is to be held by her Pharaoh
Her one true Pharaoh

She seeks him out near and far
Is he out there? Where can he be?

Did he die on the battlefield of their love?
For she too felt she might have been fatally wounded

All she wants is her equal
To be accepted and adored immensely by only one

The one

No judgement.  Lots of passion. True love.

Her Pharaoh

She desperately seeks her Pharaoh

New Series - "Searching"

So...something I used to do back when I first started blogging was to explain the inspiration or the thought that went behind a blog or belief.

The next set of blogs are inspired by this journey that I am starting.  For a while now I have been on this path to find meaning and purpose to my being.  I needed to remember why I always had this passion for life for it had seemed I had forgotten about that for a while.

So this next series of blogs is entitled "Searching".  Basically I am in search of something bigger than myself.

Enjoy.