He Doesn't Even Know...

I can't believe how much he means to me

He's in my dreams
He wakes me up in the morning

I let him in
I know I said I would never...

For the first time I was open
I was honest
I was vulnerable

But it killed me...

I want to give him everything
And yet, he just wants to leave me

I don't know what to do to make him see
I was made for him and he was made for me

We been here before
I am his Queen but he doesn't even see me right now

He is so sick right now
He doesn't even recognize me right now

How can I make him see
That his sickness is killing me

Or maybe he is testing me...
Is that what this is?
One Big Test

Of my love, of my devotion, of my loyalty, of my strength?

I'm so in love with him
I am so devoted to him
Loyal to him...

I don't know if I am that strong....
I don't know if I can live through this...

This test...or this sickness...whatever it is...whatever it will be
It is killing me
Slowly and painfully

I love him
I want him so
He just just even know...