Your flesh, but His Spirit

Repost: Apr 11, 2006
 

Current mood:calm

I am drawn to you and yet I never knew why...until now.
I believe in spirits invading our bodies only to communicate with appropriate people and sometimes to teach a lesson. Maybe it was the very first time that we met in which my king's spirits first approached me through your body. I did not even realize it. Maybe it was the fact that I was possessing ownership of a king that did not belong to me at the time...or maybe it was the fact that I was taking your flesh for face value. I failed to look deeper.
The fact that I was drawn to you made me lose interest in the king that I possessed. Maybe that was my king's plan - to get my attention and open my eyes. Not to merely reveal himself but make me realize that the guy I called my current king was not that spirit that lived in you - my would be king.
Then his spirit left your body but only briefly for he was now invading my dreams coming a little closer. Maybe my king felt the need to get inside my head to make me see that he was out there and he was trying to reach me. I know his physical attributes not. For that does not even matter. All that Jah allowed me to see was his rope-like hair. I know his name not. He comes from my land not and yet he gave me the sense that we had been through simular situations in life.

Then came you and I was confused. Your flesh and his spirit were tangled. It was obvious that I was thinking of you constantly and beating myself up over it because I could not understand it...something was not right. You possessed my king's spirit...but I was taking your flesh for face value.
I only realized it when I noticed that I saw myself in you as I was many years ago...perhaps my king suffered the same past as well. Perhaps he is letting me know that our bond is even deeper than I thought. His spirit is a great teacher...and so I can only imagine him in flesh. But anxious I am not. I already know that Jah has planted an amazing king out there for me and his spirit is all around me.
But I have to stop confusing him for you...and listen to his wisdom and follow his lead. Perhaps he will now leave your body now that I understand a little better. Perhaps he meant for you to be in our lives. What I do know is that you are you...and he is my king in spirit just awaiting the time until Jah plans our meeting. And that will be the day that our physical meet and spirits understand...for it could always be that we have met in flesh without the spirit catching up. Jah has mysterious ways.
Until then, he watches over me - my would be king.