Repost: Nov 26, 2007
I have been away. Locked up in deep meditation for a long, long time now and still....
I AIN'T DONE!
HIS work is not done! I am still being molded, crafted and put through the fire right now...
HIS work is not done!
Some do not like it - they think that I have abandoned them
That I have changed so much...
They care not for my peaceful demeanor
My living of the righteousness....
I'm just me ... in peace and harmony.
I have been away for a long time indeed...locked up in deep meditation.
My true sistren and brethren will not leave me so I have no fear of being alone.
HE would never leave me so I fear not of being alone!
Those who know my heart and care deeply for my soul will understand and still welcome me with open arms and hearts when I finally reach back out for them....
No phones, limited computer use....
I must keep my eyes on the prize and not break my meditation.
Sip my tea of white buds......burn my lemongrass, peppermint and frankincense.
Draw me closer to my creator....closer to what's right and far away from babylon.
Breathe deep in my yoga stance...inhale the sweet essence of life
Yes, indeed....
I have been away. Locked up in deep meditation for a long, long time now and still....
I AIN'T DONE!
Repost: Nov 7, 2007
People may look at my family and call us what they want....
They see that we range in the color of our skins -
They are shocked to find out that I am of mixed blood
But don't get it twisted my brethren, my sistren
My African blood runs strong!
I hail from the Mother continent
That's right, CONTINENT for those of you who don't know...
Africa is more than cool
Africa is more than hip
I wear these colors not to prove to you how "down" I am
Not to prove to you how "black" I am
Not to prove to you that I am indeed your sista
I wear these colors because I AM AFRICA
and Africa is in style
In its glory and splendor
We let strangers rape her
then we wear her jewels upon our chest, dripping the blood of our kin on our hands, chew on their flesh with our teeth...
Africa is in style!
And yet her people does not understand her wealth
nor their origins
We have been plucked from our homes and now we run amongst the plunderers
Africa is in style and I uplift her
not to prove anything
Never to you
neither to Babylon
I do it because I AM AFRICA.
and Africa is in Style!
Repost: Oct 14, 2007
Not that I feel I have to explain myself but someone who accepts me...asked...
And I want him to understand...
I want everyone to understand...I am not some card toting member of PETA - Shit I can't stand those jerks.
Ital is Vital....
Food should be your medicine - food I eat give me energy, vitamins and minerals. My diet protects me from disease and toxins here on babylon.
The food I could choose to eat could give me obesity, high blood pressure, diabetes and many more serious health problems very common among black women.
With a family history of diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesterol...i cannot afford to pay attention to what I grew up eating and what I should be eating.
I look to my ancestors for the way to healthy eating. Our African ancestors had low rates of hypertension and heart disease. Our habits must change!
We were hunters and gatherers. Foods that are traditionally apart of our ancestral diets are millet, melons, wild spinach, cowpeas and jugobean.
Several kinds of insects, some wild game, fish and shellfish were eaten; however, meat was only a visitor to the diet and milk was served solely to babies or the elderly.
Our diet was high-fiber and low-fat rich in plant proteins such as black-eyed peas, vitamin and mineral-filled leafy greens and high fiber grains - including rice and millet.
Salt and sugar used sparingly! This diet is more compatible with our genetic inheritance.
Our West African ancestors were vegetarians. A largely plant-based diet is sufficient to protect us from health problems.
In short, this is why I do what I do.
I criticize no one. I judge no one. Everyone has the right to choose their own path.
This is the path I have chosen.
This is the way in which I shall live.
I hope all can understand.
Repost: Oct 10, 2007
You know, we all strive to be good people and to return that which is given to us....
I wanted exchange generosity with a dear friend...
Sometimes, you just can't compromise who you are for your loved ones...
I opened up my home to a friend in need
And unfortunately I am the one feeling uncomfortable in my own home
There are things about me that most who were in my inner circle did not know about me...
whether it be that I just did not think they would understand or I just wanted to separate myself from my former self....
So this friend has entered my sanctuary and I feel like he more invaded my space and my world....
here comes the criticism and judgment upon my life...
Turns his nose up at my colors, my diet, my faith...really he turns his nose up at everything I stand for...
And I am willing to let this friendship go to live my life of peace with Jah....
No, I am not perfect but the luv He has shown me is...
Without Jah I would be who I am today...with a job and a home and a business....family and friends - my sistren and brethren
Jah is almighty but trying to help a friend who has lost his way...a friend who clearly needs to know Jah...
Ok now you are infringing on my happiness and peace that I worked so hard to gain.
I can't carry you anymore...that is what you have family for....
I ain't the one as I would say in my southern drawl
I ain't the one.
but I do know who is....
My friend to should get know him....
He just can't do it in my house
Repost: Oct 2, 2007
I don't know how to be....
That's just it....I don't know how to be.
I have been trying and trying - you know, maybe I just need some therapy.
Maybe the good doctor can fix me and make me just like everyone else.
make me like all the other women my age.
Make me a mother, make me a lover.
I don't know how to do these things...
Be nurturing, soft, loving, emotional...
Maybe the good doctor can fix me
The good doctor can make me just like everyone else.
Someone who trust others.
Someone willing to fall in love.
Someone who looks forward to marriage.
Just like all the other women....
I just don't know how to be....
All these things that I am not...and I thought that maybe, just maybe I could be this way if I finally....if only I could finally...
See him in the flesh...I mean not just in the subconscious...
Maybe he could make me see how I am supposed to be...
He could change me.
Repost: Sep 25, 2007
See my fellow soldJAHs!
I ride with the toughest indeed....This is spawned by a conversation (one-sided if you will) I had with a friend ...lecturing me on the dangers of withholding meat from my body.
Yeah, I know fam....some freaky shit right? Ima die if I don't get some meat in my system....lol
Fellow vegetarians:
Andre 3000, hip hop artist
Hank Aaron, baseball player
AJ, video jockey
Lauren Anderson, prima ballerina
india.arie, singer, musician
Joan Armatrading, singer, musician
B.J. Armstrong, basketball player
Erykah Badu, singer, musician
Angela Bassett, actor
Bertice Berry, writer
Traci Bingham, actor
Surya Bonali, figure skater
Lisa Bonet, actor
Brandy, singer
"Downtown" Julie Brown, television host
Ben Carson, surgeon
Common, rap artist
Trina McGee Davis, actor
Dead Prez, musicians
Oscar DeLeon, singer
Des'ree, singer
Alvenia Fulton, naturopath
El General, singer
Dizzy Gillespie, musician
Dick Gregory, writer, activist, comedian
Keith Holmes, boxer
Desmond Howard, football player
Imar Hutchins, writer, publisher
Ben Ammi, African Hebrew Israelites leader
Seba Johnson, Alpine ski racer
Diane Louise Jordan, television presenter
Mumia Abu Jamal, journalist, activist
T'Keyah Crystal Keymah, actor
Coretta Scott King, civil rights leader
Dexter King, MLK Center for Social Change
Lenny Kravitz, singer, musician
KRS-One, rap artist, musician
Aris La Tham, raw foods chef
Sabrina LeBeauf, actor
Ananda Lewis, television host
Carl Lewis, track and field athlete
Living Colour, musicians
Lisa "Left Eye" Lopez, singer
Haki Madhubuti, poet and publisher
Bob Marley, singer, musician
Ziggy Marley, singer, musician
Darius McCrary, actor
Edwin Moses, track and field athlete
Mutabaruka, poet, musician
Elizabeth Muto, Miss Black USA
Adrian Piper, artist, philosopher
Prince, singer, musician
Queen Afua, holistic health practitioner
Phylicia Rashad, actor
RuPaul, model, television host
RZA, record producer
Sanetta, actor, singer
Seal, singer
Russell Simmons, hip hop entrepreneur
Heather Small, singer
Tina Turner, singer
Cicely Tyson, actor
Alice Walker, writer, activist
Keenan Ivory Wayans, actor, comedian
Tico Wells, actor
Persia White, actor
Roshumba Williams, model, television host
Vanessa Williams, actor, singer
Cassandra M. Wimbs, vegetarian activist
Womack and Womack, singers, musicians
Benjamin Zephaniah, poet
And might I add that Andre 3000 is the sexiest vegetarian...lol
That's the kind of man I want...one who is good to himself...that way I know that he will be good to me.
So for all you naysayers, Don't play me...you do more harm to yourself with that steak than I could ever do with fruits of the earth.
Jah provided me with enough food to not have to eat meat. I don't force my ways on you so please refrain from doing so with me....
Repost: Sep 24, 2007
He said he'd recognize me anywhere...funny how he only saw the backside of me....
I had a dream once that my pharaoh came back to me ...but under false pretense....
Every now and then, I miss what we had.
Life has escalated me unto a higher plane...funny how I ran into him there
I promised to call and catch back up with him - my heart wanted it so bad
But my mind...my mind would not let me. He so practical and so logical....but in the end for this flighty fire....he was so damn boring....
But I strive to love him tho...even if he hates my spontaneity...
It was my spontaneity that pushed me to leave him all alone in the night - never to return
Every now and then...I miss what we had
He turned his back on me - He chose her over me
And she only left him lonely...she has him all to herself.
Yet when I saw him, he was begging me to pull him back from her.
"You still got it" he said....
No, I thought...I lost it...I lost it a long time ago....
Too bad we can't go back there tho....
Repost: Sep 15, 2007
Current mood:
anxious
It's all so confusing - I feel like...like I know too much, too soon
Before I can even put the pieces together.
Something is stirring up in me again...time to make another pilgrimage
I saw him. I close my eyes and stop looking. Then I see him.
And when I open my eyes...the need to be back there with him again grows stronger.
Before I can even put the pieces together...I know too much.
I feel his transition...I see his transition. Can he see me?
When he lowers do I appear there in his dreams too? So amazing - we share some of the same genetic history. We share the same struggles...
Sometimes it's like I know too much...Am I really here existing in the present?
I can't think because of these glimpses of what is to come.
Which way is wrong and which is the right? Feels like I am two women...trying to blend...trying to vie
Trying to blend...is it all nonsense?! But it's so real. SO REAL...
I saw him...like ropes so strong....
his words fed me...knew not from where he came...and yet
I have known him all my life.
He is my life.
but which one? Could he handle both women? I want to be one.
I want to be one.
Trying to blend....trying to vie
Trying....to be just one and then one with him.
Repost: Aug 18, 2007
Current mood:
contemplative
It's late...I sit here in my new home...thankful.
And yet...shameful....
I struggle.
I need help...I need my sistren and my brethren...I step away from what is real and what is my right path. My sistren though....she tries to keep pulling me in and each time I am around her..I feel that...this life is right for me and yet ....
so much resistance....so much nostalgia for another way.
but when it feels so right....it is right and I know deep down in my womb that...she leads me the right way and in a luvin way....not extinguish my soul or fire but to cultivate it.
I feel honored that she takes the time to shine on me and I give thanks to Jah all the time for her. I give thanks to Jah.
I'm not worthy. I give thanks.
It much stop now and I must trod on and stand up...I know yall read my words out there....
but do you really understand the struggle within...
i was not raised this way and my family...lol
My family ...they think I'm crazy yo....
Crazy.
I give thanks.
hear my cry, Jah.
I'm not worthy. I give thanks.
I am not trying hard enough. I'm not worthy.
I give thanks.
Repost: Jun 21, 2007
Current mood:
optimistic
I was torn when I accepted my current position becuase I knew it could not feed me intellectually but it definitely can feed me physically...
I loved my last job and I give thanks for having that position everyday....but Yahweh is everlasting......
This new job affords me more opportunity than I ever knew it could....First there is room to grow...and many things to do so I neva get bored. It took me away from the babylon system...ya'll know what I am talking about...human institution...GOVERNMENT!!!!
Not only do they know my worth....but they are going to allow me to come as I am! Do you understand how big that is in my eyes?! They know my worth and I can come as I am...this is a huge place and internationally known and yet...Georgia grown...lol (Those who know me will laugh at that one...lol).
But my point is...I don't have to sell out...I don't have to hide who I am...nor do I have to be uncomfortable. I can be me and they still know my worth!
They will allow me to be challenged and allow my aura to shine...it's purple you all know? Well, now you do...if you have not read the page...
And even tough I plan to do this thing called life on my own...if feels good to know that I can get a leg up somewhere and be celebrated as the wombman I am right here and right now...stripped...my bare naked soul....
Jah saved me from a horrible position...this job was the epitome of babylon and it was originally intended to help the small people...the moms and pops...I thought of this as a way to better help my people -- You all know who you are...I need to buy my yarn and fabric from my sistrens who make them themselves...my food from my brethren who grow it themselves...Those are the people I thought I could help with this position but I see babylon has turned it into something far more evil....I can help my people with the knowledge that I obtained from my past lives...I don't need this.
I can be me...I can be free.
Do you understand that Yahweh sent something my way and I did not even know what it was and I took it! Take a leap of faith and see what you get in life...far more than you will ever deserve. Yahweh is almighty and everlasting.
Praise Jah for making me a bread winna....a soul survivor!
The battle is only beginning...
