Trying to blend...trying to vie...

Repost: Sep 15, 2007

 

Current mood:anxious

Sometimes....

It's all so confusing - I feel like...like I know too much, too soon
Before I can even put the pieces together.

Something is stirring up in me again...time to make another pilgrimage

I saw him. I close my eyes and stop looking. Then I see him.

And when I open my eyes...the need to be back there with him again grows stronger.

Before I can even put the pieces together...I know too much.

I feel his transition...I see his transition. Can he see me?

When he lowers do I appear there in his dreams too? So amazing - we share some of the same genetic history. We share the same struggles...

Sometimes it's like I know too much...Am I really here existing in the present?
I can't think because of these glimpses of what is to come.

Which way is wrong and which is the right? Feels like I am two women...trying to blend...trying to vie

Trying to blend...is it all nonsense?! But it's so real. SO REAL...

I saw him...like ropes so strong....

his words fed me...knew not from where he came...and yet
I have known him all my life.
He is my life.

but which one? Could he handle both women? I want to be one.
I want to be one.

Trying to blend....trying to vie

Trying....to be just one and then one with him.