Emotions manifested

Repost: Nov 6, 2006

 

Current mood:anxious

I'm not your average Queen. I was the only one put on the same level as my King...I went in to battle with him. I have this mysterious aura that separates me from the rest.
I was sent here to this earth time and time again to fullfill a mission. I have been trespassed against....I have been wronged...I have suffered.
But none of these are the causes of my unaffectionate nature. I am the most unusual Queen...Empress of the night...I fought battles and have seen war. My King and I have conquered other lands and ruled over others. The gentle Queen I am....
I love my people and I love my King....surely they must know that my lack of emotional communication is not an accurate indication of my true intentions or feelings...
I struggle with the words to say sometimes, especially to my King. The words, they get lost somewhere deep in my soul....or stuck somewhere in the muddy swamps of my throat. Then the words somehow vanish in the black holes of my womb. Forever lost in my body...never making their way out to the recipient....then I am left feeling empty.
My Pharaoh, you must know how I feel about you. I knew that I would love you and and only you long before we even met. Our journey have yet to begin in this epoch and yet here I am loving you before we make plans together. I want the emotions to fall from my lips...
I feel so strongly for you already and yet you may feel as if I could care less. But you mean the world to me. My desires to be with you are there and they are real...and although you can't see them or hear them...it does not mean that they do not exist. It does not mean that I don't see you in my future, being your wife, bonding and merging my world with yours, becoming the mother of your children...
I've lost my heart in you already and ready to lay down my life and give it all up for you - as I have many times over before. It is our destiny so don't ever doubt in this eon that my feelings are in existance. They have not been lost in the sands of time....nor do they linger around the pyramids awaiting our return. They are still with you....dwelling in your heart as well as mine.
we evolve each century and perhaps this is the century in which the emotions will finally flow from my lips.
so be patient my love, and understand that all I have to give is my heart and soul....both of which you had since the beginning of time....as created by the Most High.