Giving Thanks

Repost: Oct 17, 2006

Current mood:thankful

I woke up this morning with so many things on my mind....then I thought...
I need to write a blog...These journal entries are so good for my soul...I used to keep a journal for years but no one ever read them. Only myself. That is why I chose to start blogging. Someone chastise me once for doing this and for "putting all my business out there"...but I still question if she was angry with me for never telling her these things or if she was jealous of the guts I have to state how I feel.
Once again, I post these blogs because I feel like I must inform the people. What good are my views if I lock them away in a composition notebook?! The point is that I want my brethren and sistren to wake up and question things. See various situations from other viewpoints. I want you all open you minds. I am not here to evoke envy, hate, nor to offend.
So with that said, I go back to the topic at hand...Giving thanks.
Like I said, I awoke this morning at like 3am. So many things on my mind...I have had so much anxiety for the past few weeks over my career, the business and oh yes, money situations.
Just when I hit a brick wall with the business,
Just when I was feeling underpaid and underappreciated at my job that I love,
Just when I was falling behind on my bills....
Here comes Jah stepping in to take care of me. I never doubted Him...but I was beginning to wonder how long was He going to let me dangle there in need.
So I am laying there praying that I gain my appettite back and that he blesses me and my other friends that are going through hard times. I have been so stressed and I was trying to keep my head up about these things but then I thought...at least I have a career (exactly what I wanted, straight out of college), at least I own a small business, and at least I got the luxuries that I am behind on....
I know that Jah will not let me down. He always come through...so just relax and sit tight.
I just wonder sometimes, how I can let the small things stress me. Even good things...including my current crush...find myself wanting to rush things along with him...
All the while Jah is telling me to chill...to stop rushing his work. I had to sit back for a minute...understand that my urgency was really my excitement, my feelings and intentions rolled into one. So I will relax. Allow his hands to cover this situation. A year ago I saw him in my dreams...then in a friend and now here he is in the flesh....so can I wait a little longer....
Of course I can.
And in the meantime, I will continue to be blessed.
Thank you Jah.