Current mood:
indescribable
Terrified of you....indescribableAfraid that my feelings will get the best of me and that my heart will spin out of control. This is hard for such an Empress to digest...the fact that she is falling fast and deeply for you. The fact that she finds you a worthy Pharoah...
How do you feel, King, to know that your Lioness has such Lion-like qualities? To know that she will go into battle along side you, to know that she possesses just as much strength and dignity as you hold...
She is afraid to show such vulnerability to her King even though she has waited her whole life for him to come....but now you have arrived and yet she is terrified....afraid of you and your power....wanting to merge her body with yours - yet she knows that she is not yet emotionally ready.
She is terrified to show what she perceives as weakness and yet this weakness proves that she is strong. Love will make her vulnerable...and yet brave...her heart becoming bold. She wants to demonstrate for her would-be lover how exquisite her love will be...
So she works hard all winter to prepare herself to do what she has never done .... to love this man with all her heart and soul. To be his confidant, his ally, his greatest love....his everything above everyone else. Little by little she tears down those walls of distrust and fear. All in the hopes that she will be able to become proud of the fact that she has, in fact, fallen into this deep, dark abyss called love.
Slowly she makes progress as she grows into her Queendom with her King. He teaches her to let go of her inhibitions, to submit, to love. She considers this opportunity to love in life and resist the urge to run away from the greatest accomplishment she will ever know...allowing herself to love as Jah intended her to do. Allowing herself to feel eternal passion for this one man and him alone....
Because she now realizes that her desire to be with her King is far greater than her fear of love.
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