Let me just preface this by saying that Jah did not intend us to live on this earth as loners. We are designed in a way to want relationships and to need them as well.
We are wired to form relationships with our brethren and sistren. It is also important that we form these friendships with those of our own kind...meaning as a woman, I should be able to form and maintain friendships with other women.
With that said, I must touch on growth within friendships. Friendships are one of those things that are forever evolving.
So from my heart to your mind....here is my experience bare before all.
Given that I have a free and airy personality, it is only inevitable that many friends in my lifetime will be left behind. There comes a point in my life where I find that what once brought us together just is not enough to maintain this bond. It is universal and it is rules of nature. Some relationships are not built to last or stand the test of time.
Not the woman that I was at 20. There has been some great changes in my life and I can think of one friendship that came to fruition at a pivotal and exciting time in my life. I had these dreams of granduer and anything was possible and I was going to make it happen. I still have big dreams....just not the same big dreams. I grew and so my dreams evolved. This new friend was enamored by my ambitions and aspirations. However, I think that she is still believing that I am that same bright-eyed girl.
She does not understand that I am older, wiser and I am faced with new responsibilities that truthfully reveal my age and paths that I have taken. I have changed...I have grown in more ways than one...mentally and well let's face it...physically as well.
I have experienced the adventurist lifestyle in my youth, but now this friend fails to realize that I have experienced womanhood now. Before I was carefree, never loved, prideful and let's face it a bit selfish in that I wanted to live my life independently.
But I have evolved into a woman with responsibilities, I feel feelings unlike any I have known for a king, I am humble and no, I do not want to live a life on my own. I now want to share it with someone...my best friend, my love, my confidant.
So while she worships the friend that once was....I will be over here being the woman that I now I am.
Evolving into queendom and leaving all ill fitted friendships behind. I mean no harm. I aim not to offend but simply grow.
And all I ask is that my friends understand and know when to let me go
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