They say: "when ya talk, you say you still new to this, but you know what is what and you sound confident to me"
"you say you new but you sound like one to me. ya sound so sure of this path so why doubt yourself in the livity"
I always feel I don't measure up spiritually. No matter what walk, what path...I feel like I am so small and I dont really measure up.
I mean I don't want to be out there coloring my language with the fancy talk, dread my hair, listen to the music, change my name and not mean it.
I want to feel it. an I do! I feel it so strong and the livity makes me a stronger person every day...every second - minute....
Sometimes I just don't feel worthy or like I am an outsider....maybe that is just the loner in me talking but...
perhaps a pilgrimage to enlighten and reason to build me up with confidence in my stance.
Is that what it is? I mean I believe with my heart but I feel like I lack something...
I recognize I cannot do this alone so I learn to reach out to my brethren and sistren....
I even went out to a Rasta Rising...a lecture here in my neighborhood...a lot of us are loving out here...(see I tell ya I was guided in the right direction - I just know it!)
But last night I went out...and I fell in love all over again with the livity.
It's true. It's true. It's my truth.
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