Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Do you remember?

Repost: Mar 8, 2007

 


Do you remember where you were when you got that feeling...
Do you remember how you felt about that feelings....what did you think - Did you feel that urgency deep in your gut?
It happened to me this morning. I woke up from yet another dream and then it hit me this morning and I understand everything now. All the pain and agony that I was going through just recently. My fear, yeah my fear...I know understand where that originated as well.
I thought I could just walk away so easily and all around me people kept telling me what I was suffering from.
But I did not believe them. I mean, who knows me better than me, right?
I knew somehow I think...I was in denial or rather I was trying to cure myself of this affliction. Ward it off like a common cold. It's a usual thing like the cold however, there's no cure and I am forever tainted.
Forever a ripple in time and I will wear it like a tattoo til the end of my days.
I don't even understand how I will emerge from this world changing event in my life. I know that I will never be the same in all the days to come.
And yet should I ever get the chance to experience this again...I know that I will never, ever do it like this again.
It boggles my mind and I don't even know if I am here on Earth anymore.
So far gone, floating out there in space.
Do you remember where you were when you got that feeling?
I do. On my way to work driving on the streets of Atlanta when it hit me. all the moments shared - the good times and the bad....they all flashed in front of my eyes. Brandy was playing on the radio...Ironically enough it sounded like the soundtrack of the moment. It just kept playing over and over.
Then just like that, I wished I could make it stop. Wished I could climb back into time and stop myself from speaking up....Wished I could take it all back and go back to normal...
And now....now, I just miss all those times...and I just want to get on with it.
Get on with it. Tired of running.

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